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[sears]

I'm not crazy. Anyone who really knows me knows I'm not crazy, and anyone who thinks I'm crazy is--

I couldn't do HALF of what I do if I were insane! I don't think anyone knows the meaning of the word. They throw it around because they want to rile me up, but it doesn't mean anything.

If I were really crazy I'd be dead by now.

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[peoplesprincess.livejournal.com]

He valued me as an heir.

[hislostlover.livejournal.com]

You are more than a heir.

[peoplesprincess.livejournal.com]

But to him, I was an heir.

[hislostlover.livejournal.com]

Well to others you are something more.

[peoplesprincess.livejournal.com]

Or something less.

[hislostlover.livejournal.com]

That depends on the person.

[peoplesprincess.livejournal.com]

[... yeah, she has no idea how to admit that she doesn't know how to be what she thinks she needs to be without her father by her side]

[hislostlover.livejournal.com]

[Lilith takes this as a hint to lay a hand on her head gently.]

Have you ever thought of starting over, Azula?

[peoplesprincess.livejournal.com]

[leans her head on her shoulder without really thinking]

No.

[because she... doesn't know how]

[hislostlover.livejournal.com]

We can start over at anytime, Azula.

[She brushed her fingers through her hair.]

All you have to do is just stop thinking of the past and move forward.

[peoplesprincess.livejournal.com]

I can't do that. It's not an option.

The Fire Nation is a part of me.

[hislostlover.livejournal.com]

Why not move forward with it? You could still do a great measure of good for your nation.

[peoplesprincess.livejournal.com]

Not with Zuko in the way.

[hislostlover.livejournal.com]

You could work with Zuko. I know you don't think of him as a brother but, that doesn't mean you are incapable of getting along.

[peoplesprincess.livejournal.com]

He'd never do it. He's too convinced that he's right, and even if he wasn't, he'd still be untrustworthy. You have no idea how many times he betrayed us.

[hislostlover.livejournal.com]

Aren't you convinced you are right too? The one thing you seem to have in common is that you care for the Fire Nation.

Why not take on a project to help your people?

[peoplesprincess.livejournal.com]

He'd keep working against me. That's what the war was, after all; he hates progress! I can't do anything until he's out.

... I don't want to talk about him anymore.

[hislostlover.livejournal.com]

Alright, we don't have to talk about Zuko.

[peoplesprincess.livejournal.com]

[just falls silent]

[hislostlover.livejournal.com]

[Lilith doesn't mind quiet time at all.]

[peoplesprincess.livejournal.com]

[still totally resting her head on her shoulder]

[hislostlover.livejournal.com]

[After a little while, she speaks up again.]

How do you feel about jello cups?

[peoplesprincess.livejournal.com]

... What?

[she has no idea what those are]

[hislostlover.livejournal.com]

[Lilith chuckles.] Here let me show you.

[Lilith crawled over to her bed and lifted up the pillow. Sure enough there was a collection of little plastic containers with different colors of gelatin.]

They are a type of food common to hospitals. Just pick a color. As you can see, I have quite the collection already.

[peoplesprincess.livejournal.com]

[vaaaaaguely recognizes it from her own hospital stays now; she always avoided it because it looked gross and weird 8|]

Why are you hiding them under your pillow?